&I don't know what to do next .

Today Nazma didn't come .
like wt- .
I'll be soo left out in netball .
Just as I thought ,
during netball I was the only left unpair-ed .
so malu..
muhahaha ,
&coach became my partner for the day !
so scary , and it was sooo damn tiring .
tiring-er than other netball days .
my legs are sore !!!
AHH!
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I'm tired of entertaining thoughts about holidays .
Practically , I have to survive this ordeal[is that the word ?] first, before the holidays come .
Smtg like , checking exams paper ,
and getting your friggin' not-so-good marks .
well , I hate it ,
but so far so good , as I passed all my return-ed subjects .
borderline pass jek ..
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and I don't know what to do next .
to wait , or just give up ?